I am at my wits end on how to motivate myself. I really don’t want to live this way anymore put I can’t seem to convince my subconscious otherwise. I really wonder how something that makes you feel so good can make you feel so bad immediately after you are done with it. By that I mean black tar heroin or food.
I still don’t know if any of this is going to help me in any way but I will keep trying. Maybe, just maybe I can stop stuffing my face long enough to figure out why I am so fucked up when it comes to food.